A Million

Your soft kisses does something to me.
What you would call out of the ordinary.
Soft like..
Feathers touching me.
Softly or like a sable brush.
You always start on the bottom and move your way up.
Impatient for our kiss
For my lips
To meet yours is a must.
The closer you get
My oxygen get smaller
while the tension gets taller and taller.
This feeling
I wish it could last a million.
so much love and lust.
Surround us and fills the room from wall to wall.
All the way up to the ceiling.
I told you, I want this to last a million.
Can't say forever because it would sound lesser.
Something with the chemistry.
Takes us to outer space.
We're on Venus, We're on mars.
Floating with a trillion different stars.
Just me and you.
No drugs
Just pure love.
Slow loving.
I've never made love in space before.
A drill to my core.
That's all it takes to evaporate to another place.
Like metamorphosis.
We're two, now one.
So blazing, hot like the sun.
Did we go to mars already?
I can't tell the difference.
Your loving is so diligent.
Baby, you have my mind going crazy.
I'm ready for you to.
Take me home baby.
Yes take it...
Home.
ohh.
See where your soft kisses get me.
Takes me places I've never seen.
You put the "eme" in supreme.
You bring things from my dream and make the real
Give me the urge to call into work as if I suddenly became ill.
And my Vagina... you heal
From pain to pleasure and again reverse
and so forth.
All in cold weather. The winter is ours
Naturally you bring the Tropical rainstorm to my room.
and baby every time it rains I think of you.
So when anyone discusses cupcake weather
All I think about is me & you together.

Not forever..
Not a billion
but
I want us to last a million.

V.I.P

10.23.2011
I won't forget when we first met.
I was too young and I didn't understand what you were about.
Everyone spoke so highly of you though
No doubt
My mom for instance
Told me lots of stories about you and I listened
Afraid to tell anyone else
Only to me is when you were mentioned
Our relationship began to grow.
I said things that no one else didn't even know
What you do you me..
ahh.. you have no clue.
Funny how back then I used to shy away
Now my hearts skips beats
Kind of has its own melody
I want to say i'd rather be with you then
Skky, E, or that herb which
Supposedly grew from natural seeds.
All of our moments
I want the whole world to see
Your presence and strong essence takes me on a journey
Happy flights, brokenhearted fights, intellectual nights,
crying tears, definite dreams, and even lustful things.
I work through it
While lifting my spirits
Like butterflies flying high
from flower to flower
I can go on for hours.
I've come this far in my life to find the courage to share
Tell everyone about V.I.P
You. A very important person.
She who believes in me
So beautifully.
Her name is.
Poetry.

Never Never Land

My life is like one of those long freight trains
everyone hates when they're on the way to some place.
If I stop, my whole world would stop spinning.
My factory would get shut down.
My whole business.
All of my workers will get let down.
If I stop shinning, then there would be one less star missing from the universe
If I decided to fall down to earth and turn to cheese.
It wouldn't get dark anymore.
Only daylight
Sometimes I wish Ticker bell would come through my window
and take my hand
and like peter-pan
I'll fly off to never never land.
"Wait! Mommy! Where are you going?"
"I wanna go!"
"Sorry baby mommy will be back!"
As I drift away into the sky.
All I see, the bay lights beneath me.
Everything is so pretty.
I wish I could do this more often.
No bills, no cell phone, no loud domestic violence from next door,
No long trips t the grocery store,
No nagging boss everyday.
Just me, flying away.
No traffic, no drama.
For once no headache
No heartache
Just me floating to this happy place
above the bubbles and vibes of music.
With these city lights.
No requirements
Just to fly.
At least one time.
I always wondered what it would be like to fly.
and then I feel these taps on my face.
Everything starts  to fade.
Am interruption to my thoughts.
"Mommy! Mommy! Can I watch beauty and the beast??"
"Okay sure.."

Holla for a Dolla

No mc. Just reality along with all my crazy analogies.
When I speak don't say bye, try saying hi to me.
 Take some of this pride instead getting high no chemical dependency,
with all your brain deficiency.
 You and mary janes intimacy.
 Get on this knowledge prolificacy.
I don't think your hearing me.
The question they-re asking me
If you had one wish what would it be?
Not the usual list but just.... One wish.
Can you..keep it real with me?
No small talk
without having to lead on to sexual
Conversation
Give me a little admiration
I'm a lady.
I think I deserve that
Am I getting too straight to the point?
Well I think you're flamboyant
A matter of fact
You can't even look me in my eyes
Your thirstier then a snake looking for its first bite.
you're not even my type!
What was I thinking
And your breath is stinking!
I think you need some cavity cleaning.
Really, i'm not trying to beast.
I can't stand a dude who claims he has a mouthpiece
as they call it
Approaching me with all this nonsense
which happens constantly
I rather a guy tell his name then
the first thing that comes out his mouth
is "Can I have Yo number??"
Treating us women like nameless prey
Guess what we have game too
Men always thing we have no clue
to what you players try to do.
lol
That's all I have to say
Have a nice day
Wait before you  get in your ford explorer
Here's your face
I found it on the floor.

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That night

He gives me a kiss goodbye.
Goodnight,
In my heart I lied.
Fumbling with my keys,
He walks away
I say, Baby wait
Please stay
More intense then the first
Our lips meets again
Through the door we burst
He undresses me
I feel like a queen
Foreplay,
I whisper Softly
I want this my way..
Only thing he could say is..
Okay.
I tell him where,
The pudding is between.
It goes about a long fifteen,
Wet
Ready for Sex..
 I start off with,
 not tootsie pop licks,
 but how many until you get to the center of the stick,
 now I taste his tongue,
 so divine,
It gives me cold down my spine every time,
we take our time,
he says tells me,
is this mine?
 I struggle to say yes,
the way I'm moaning,
 he shouldn't have to guess,
Mmm. Yes.
I'll have you wondering
What's next..
You won't wanna say
"Shout out to my ex,
Shout out to the sex"..
I think we might break this bed..
I'm sitting on his face while he gives me head.
Until, I had enough
He wants to give it to me rough
Tries to move.
His hands are cuffed
Me?
A freak?
Just a little..
Now i'm riding backwards
Working the middle
In the dark
He finds his way to my breast
My nipples
his starts to twiddle
We're almost.. there
....almost...
Our music is
Intuitive..
Together as one
We melt
Smooth as silk
Ecstasy spills the milk.
Like a bootle of champagne
We cum..
No pain
Just pleasure..
All of this a memory
As I think about it.
I take short pulls of this cigarette
See what this has done
I had to smoke in order to cope.
Not the usual. lol
So the bet was..
Hmm that night,
 who would be... lol
 umm well lets just say
 HE ended up being sound asleep.

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American Dream

I'm very visual & analytical
Not political
but listen here yo.
I didn't grow up in the street
but I volunteered to be free
When we're young
 we don't realize
 how we're being dumb
it take us to fall hard to be revived
Girls walking around thinking they're grown
Men licking their tongues saying...
Yum.
Then she thinks hmm.. I might give him some.
Things go too far..
she runs out of time
Tells the man
I changed my mind.
 He says nothing Just holds up a barrel of a gun
 Left her to die when he was done
 Now the suspects on the run
Any leads detective?
 came up with none ......
 5 months later girl finds out that she's having the suspects son
thinking..
how could I be so dumb.
It'll be okay girl.
You'll learn when you get older
and always remember
god won't give you too much you can't handle on your shoulders.
Then  the son grows up in poverty
through the cycle
Running with these so called thugs
selling drugs
Poppin' other thugs.
Caught in the life
Mother's struggling trying to make ends meet
Like everyone.
She's just trying to eat.
Worried for her son.
 Praying everyday
That he makes it home safe.
Finally, everything comes in place.
 He realizes this isn't the path he wanted to take
 the moment his best friend was shot in face!
Used his energy to play ball
His brains
 Ended up making better grades
This road wasn't clear before
Finally he receives the call he was waiting for
Scouts offering scholarships
 Knocking on the door
This is a blessing!
 Now his college education is paid for
Glad to say
Success is on the way
This is a TURNOVER!!
 breaking the cycle!

 Something that needs to be happening today!..

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Diamond Ring

It's not what it seems.
The ring that looks so supreme.
The one that was in our dreams.
What doe sit really mean?
We'll trade in our life for a ring.
Not all, I should say.
I mean,
Some are okay.
It's the unhappy ones I'm talking about.
The ones who shout with a closed mouth.
Girl, go after your dreams.
This isn't what it seems.
You're too young.
Don't trade your soul for a sole.
It gets real old.
I'll give it to ya, You're bold.
Let's be real.
You don't want to get old,
towards the end with no soul.
Those heels you have with no healing.
The only feeling he was giving,
was that money & a sexual healing.
This is not just to you but to all of you who
will trade happiness in for a ring.
For what seems to be the finer things
so you're not in dire needs.
Pleasing him for the wrong reasons.
Stop!
Your heart is bleeding
Please take your time.
Your knight is coming
you just can't see him.
What you hold has more worth
give yourself credit.
You ARE beautiful
Accept it.
That diamond ring you were trying to win,
The whole time you were searching,

It was within.

Illusion

8/16/11

I have no time for playing games.
Lames.
It's not as fun as hitting you in poker for that change.
while your lying & being superficial,
I still remain the same.
Just as mother taught.
Here, let me give you food for thought.
Partial thoughts.
One third
Just enough.
No scamming,
I don't think you can handle it.
As my words will roll off of this tongue
Lush
but it'll blow your mind like C4
You'll spill your guts
Now their jamming on the floor
No Smuckers
before you can say what? when? who?
I'll disappear into the sky, clear blue.
Now you're saying,
Jamming?
No scamming?
Lames?
Huh?
Games?
Wait...
What?
When?
Who?
Your tripping.
The person?

It was you.

Hey!!

So I just back-posted all of my poetry I had online. It's not the best but it does create an outlet for me to relieve stress and speak what's on my mind. I hope you enjoy! :)


-Igzotik

Rainy Days..

It seems like these months have gotten longer & longer

but every weight put on me i've become stronger.

every rock 

every stone 

every block 

every slate, 

deep down to my bones

almost no recovery, 

I struggle to keep motivation

 until I see that pretty little face

 & i hear that strong voice telling me to pray,

I say mommy I can't do this anymore 

she says if you couldn't I wouldn't be so sure,

your future has alot in store,

If I believe in you why can't you see this in you.

so I pray Jehovah I need to have a short talk with you today.

At every low point in my life I feel like i'm lost in a way.

this time is harder then the last 

please give me strength this is too much on my plate

 but still I pray

please help me be stronger then yesterday 

they tell me that after every rainy day

theres a rainbow you promised to show 

is this true 

because sometimes it rains so hard for me i can barely see the sun shining through,

but I know you keep your word

 i just feel like my rainy day is like a high tide rising high,

thanks for listening I see the other end of the rainbow

 so here I go

I need to continue moving forward.

Amen

P.s. Goodbye..

P.s. Goodbye

 on Monday, September 5, 2011 at 12:50am

My soul almost died
I turned off the light
It worked
the harder,
I cried
I poured out
Your selfishness,
My doubts, the whys
The who, when, and whats
I don't care anymore
Most of it was demise
I'm not going to wait
and When you realize where you should of been
it'll be too late
I remember when I thought it was men,
who cried in the dark
But it was women from the start.
Tonight it was me who cried in the dark.

Goodbye

and thanks this is me taking back my heart. 

Untitled

I have not been myself lately, a little crazy, out of my self, out of this world.

This life of mine has been driving while I'm out of my mind.

I need to concentrate before it's too late.

Something I fear...

I'm just being sincere but I think it's time I grab the wheel ....

Hello Ashley, are you there? Still?

"STFU" No I think not, can't be stopped like when your legs lock

Like a glock when someone gets shot. Popped because of "shorty" or maybe because dude had some shoes that the other didn't cop.

So what.

Right...

"You gotta light?"

I'm ready to take the next Flight, 

Paper Planes.

Trying to stay sane. At least. 

I'm using this outlet of mine, instead of the typical ish.

I get on the lyrical tip. Not the spitting on the mic type of ish.

I'll leave that to Hip Hop. Ha!

What's left of it.

When I get in a zone sometimes there's no coming home. 

That feeling when you're all alone, no noise, no lights, secluded. 

Just your thoughts and illusion.

Staring to spin over your head while your worries starting crawling from the floor up to the bed.

Then everything starts to turn code red.

Wait stop.

Can you even imagine such?

This is what happens when you think to much. 

Maybe this is the subject I was trying to touch.

When I get on something I go in deep,

because that's the only way people can listen to me.

But for now.

Peace

Unripened

on Saturday, January 22, 2011 at 9:46am

How could you intentionally

Be so conspiciously

No Sensitivity

but Vividly

Vicious

It's clear to me

I was reading this book you see,

Now I realize you couldn't be the man I wanted you to be. 

Or should I say, what it takes to be a man.

Just a boy not a man.

Damn.

You claimed it, i just named it.

Just an observation.

Even though

this will fly over your head

Out of your world

Like aviation.

Don't mistake this, as hate.

This is part of my relaxation.

My words free me like

Blue Robin Birds.

Like the leaves from the trees

In fall.

While you think about those things,

I'll think about two.

The duece.

Mr. Right

Mr. Right

 on Monday, January 17, 2011 at 2:12pm

You know, before I was so-called dating you.

I was waiting on you, I was going through all of these different dudes. I was wasting time,

More like, I was wasting me.

What I was looking for, I didn't find.

I didn't realize I was searching, but searching for what?

Love, starting with a L,

ending with a E.

Possibly.

Someone who would love me, for me?

but how could he if I wasn't me.

I wasn't me.

Now I see.

I love me.

I'm in a zone.

Mr. Right is far from sight.

I'm in a lane speeding towards my future and if he's there,

it may be too late because I didn't wait.

I decided not to wait.